Been spending a lot of time with an old friend... She's got me worried. Obsessing a lot with death. I love her dearly as a friend and I'm not sure what's up... Don't know what I'd do without her.
Got news that one of my old college professors came down with leukemia all of a sudden. He's in one of those bubble things somewhere. The day after I heard about that I got a letter from him to do a staff review. Creepy.
Death and blood are things that really bother me. I really don't like to think about such things. I don't like to think of those I've lost over the years. It's certainly not my own death that I fear. I never have given too much thought to my own death. I'd like my ashes to be scatter in the mountains perhaps, but that's all I've really thought about. I hope I get to see much of the world before my time comes.
I find I just kinda go with the flow... Not giving much thought to little things. Well, I do give thoughts to things, but they tend to be thoughts of my actions relating to my immediate and mid-term goals. I've largely given up on long term goals as they change constantly. If I think I have a good thing I go with it. That's about it. I don't like to dwell too much on my own past... Not that it was bad, but it's the past and not much I can do about it.
I'm just in some weird mood tonight... I'm feeling unusually lonely. I definately need to get me a new gal.